Our theme for January is Start! because January is that time of new beginnings. New calendar on the wall (mine has a someecards theme), resolutions to make improvements (eat right! exercise more! clear the clutter!), new confusion when it’s time to write down the year (2014? No that can’t be right. Can it?). But I do that every year.
And yeah, fail a little every year.
So this year, my Start! is going to be a little bit of start, a little bit of stop and a whole lot of finish–as in stop making excuses and start finishing what I started. Tackle the clutter and successfully clear out a closet (or two; but let’s don’t push it). Learn to make something (a recipe, something) and do it really, really well. Finish the half-finished craft projects. Finish the writing projects I’ve stared.
I realize that in years past, my problem has been lack of focus–that specific problem that seems to plague modern women–too many ideas, not enough time (or functional brain matter) for execution. I want to stop trying to do it all and start downsizing a little bit.
I’m going to start paying attention more to what matters. I have always pushed myself to do more, be more, try more; but what if what makes me happy is just to be? What if spending an entire day reading a book with a cup of coffee (at breakfast; water at lunch; wine at dinner) makes me happy? That is not a day wasted, that’s a day filled with things that bring me joy. Me–just me–and that’s okay. I am going to start respecting that downtime is not wasted time.
I am going to tackle projects and not listen to anyone else’s negative talk about why I am selfish or why they can’t do what I can do or any tiny words that chip away at my happiness. I’m going to be happy to be me. I will smile and do what feeds my soul. I hope you do the same.
I’m going to start the day with a prayer of please and the choice to be happy, finish it with a prayer of thanks in my heart for all that I was able to accomplish, even if the most important decision I made that day was what to have for lunch.
I’m going to start giving myself permission to be happy, and be happy about that instead of feeling guilty.
Mari Farthing is one of the editors of Oklahoma Women Bloggers and is making happiness a priority in 2014. Mari blogs about lots of random things, like music, family and her escapades as a writer and editor at Mari’s Virtual Notebook and Mari Edits.